I'm a recovering codependent
Someone who used to make herself so available to others
that it crowded out everything else
Now I'm creating healthy boundaries
while at the same time
walls are falling down around me
I'm cresting the hill and the sky is an expanse
and my heart is enlarging along with it
Freedom is better than sex
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Monday, November 27, 2017
STEALING STARBUCKS
sometimes free moments just
fall into your lap
that meeting gets cancelled
something you scheduled doesn’t take as long as you thought it would
and you say to yourself
I have a free hour!
What am I gonna do?
Watch TV
Take a nap
Read a book
or go to Starbucks and splurge
on a Caramel Apple Cider
with whipped cream.
And write this.
fall into your lap
that meeting gets cancelled
something you scheduled doesn’t take as long as you thought it would
and you say to yourself
I have a free hour!
What am I gonna do?
Watch TV
Take a nap
Read a book
or go to Starbucks and splurge
on a Caramel Apple Cider
with whipped cream.
And write this.
Thursday, August 31, 2017
WORDS OF ADVICE FOR A YELLOW FINCH
As I passed my bay window
I noticed a female finch
feeding at the cylinder outside
or was it a male?
(even a Google search has not made me certain as September approaches)
Birds are rare at our feeder
as our home's proximity to a busy street
often makes our food less palatable
than the seeds in my brother's back yard
So I stopped and watched
as she/he chirped and chomped
Suddenly, I realized that I, too was chomping:
absent mindedly shortening a banana
For a moment, bird and beast were one
and she seemed to size me up in that moment
I stood still
so as not to startle her
and then became aware of her tasting and twittering
You know, you shouldn't talk with your mouth full
I noticed a female finch
feeding at the cylinder outside
or was it a male?
(even a Google search has not made me certain as September approaches)
Birds are rare at our feeder
as our home's proximity to a busy street
often makes our food less palatable
than the seeds in my brother's back yard
So I stopped and watched
as she/he chirped and chomped
Suddenly, I realized that I, too was chomping:
absent mindedly shortening a banana
For a moment, bird and beast were one
and she seemed to size me up in that moment
I stood still
so as not to startle her
and then became aware of her tasting and twittering
You know, you shouldn't talk with your mouth full
Thursday, July 20, 2017
FADING FAST
Life feels so permanent
Until
People start to pass from sight
Like the faces that fade
In that Back to the Future photograph
And suddenly
You walk past a family picture
And realize that everyone in it is gone
At the time
They may have had their whole lives before them
With hopes and worries for the future
And the I'll always be here feeling
Or the snapshot was taken
Later in life
As the golden glow of retirement warmed
And that italicized feeling had worn off
But now
Their faces are on Mass cards
Tucked into the corners of picture frames
And fading fast
Until
People start to pass from sight
Like the faces that fade
In that Back to the Future photograph
And suddenly
You walk past a family picture
And realize that everyone in it is gone
At the time
They may have had their whole lives before them
With hopes and worries for the future
And the I'll always be here feeling
Or the snapshot was taken
Later in life
As the golden glow of retirement warmed
And that italicized feeling had worn off
But now
Their faces are on Mass cards
Tucked into the corners of picture frames
And fading fast
Friday, May 5, 2017
IN MY CELL
My stone walls
are bare and mouldy
my bedstead cold
my mattress lumpy
the damp hangs like the crucifix on the wall
its sharp edges difficult to embrace
but the the orb of light
and sensuous curve of my lampstand
remind me of warmer climes and the arc of life
the ornate sconce on the wall of Hindu temples and Taj Majals
and crawling vines that show me the way out
are bare and mouldy
my bedstead cold
my mattress lumpy
the damp hangs like the crucifix on the wall
its sharp edges difficult to embrace
but the the orb of light
and sensuous curve of my lampstand
remind me of warmer climes and the arc of life
the ornate sconce on the wall of Hindu temples and Taj Majals
and crawling vines that show me the way out
Thursday, February 23, 2017
SO
There are times when God
so proves Himself
that He bests
the daily masturbations of life
There are times when God
so makes Himself present
that His very presence fills you
like nothing else can
There are times when God
seems to select each song on your playlist
so you feel as if He is singing along
And He is
so proves Himself
that He bests
the daily masturbations of life
There are times when God
so makes Himself present
that His very presence fills you
like nothing else can
There are times when God
seems to select each song on your playlist
so you feel as if He is singing along
And He is
Thursday, February 9, 2017
THE PAPA HOUSE
You wouldn't think that a carriage house
set back from the road
would draw so many wanderers in;
such an estate was designed
to be admired from afar:
the driveway long enough to intimidate
and KEEP strangers OUT
But its occupants' arms were far more pliant
than the folded stone arms of Tatiana;
with such a reach to draw in those
that needed a home:
a cup of coffee or a meal in the kitchen
And just as a garden nourishes a variety of plants,
this menagerie flowered with diversity--
from the domestic to the exotic--
and transplants flourished beside native species
The cross-pollenation fed souls while laughter lightened loads
and the warm conversation intermingled with the smell of spices
and pancakes
and the smoke of a hookah pipe
set back from the road
would draw so many wanderers in;
such an estate was designed
to be admired from afar:
the driveway long enough to intimidate
and KEEP strangers OUT
But its occupants' arms were far more pliant
than the folded stone arms of Tatiana;
with such a reach to draw in those
that needed a home:
a cup of coffee or a meal in the kitchen
And just as a garden nourishes a variety of plants,
this menagerie flowered with diversity--
from the domestic to the exotic--
and transplants flourished beside native species
The cross-pollenation fed souls while laughter lightened loads
and the warm conversation intermingled with the smell of spices
and pancakes
and the smoke of a hookah pipe
Thursday, January 26, 2017
ANNE OF THE BIG BARN
She sits by the glazing in the big red barn
Soaking up the angling sun
The first pane flickers with promise
The second with cells on a microscope slide
The rays shine through painted swirls of color
And the muted nose prints of children
In the spot where she dreamt
And got engaged
There is still room for new memories, new dreams
And a life beyond the farm
2017
Soaking up the angling sun
The first pane flickers with promise
The second with cells on a microscope slide
The rays shine through painted swirls of color
And the muted nose prints of children
In the spot where she dreamt
And got engaged
There is still room for new memories, new dreams
And a life beyond the farm
2017
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